1 00:00:25,860 --> 00:00:34,636 [♪♪♪] 2 00:00:39,206 --> 00:00:40,675 [grunts] 3 00:00:54,756 --> 00:00:56,356 [exhales] 4 00:00:56,490 --> 00:00:57,625 Fuck. 5 00:00:59,527 --> 00:01:00,828 [grunts] 6 00:01:07,769 --> 00:01:09,069 [clears throat] 7 00:01:09,202 --> 00:01:18,478 [♪♪♪] 8 00:01:53,881 --> 00:01:55,449 [water flows] 9 00:02:09,631 --> 00:02:11,398 -HAROLD: Hey. -What's up, Harry? 10 00:02:11,532 --> 00:02:13,868 Hey, man, do you have any food upstairs? 11 00:02:15,903 --> 00:02:18,506 I swear to God, this banana was yellow last night. 12 00:02:20,474 --> 00:02:21,876 They never give you time, you know? 13 00:02:22,010 --> 00:02:24,045 You turn your back, you reach for it, surprise! 14 00:02:24,177 --> 00:02:25,780 Fuckin' rotted. 15 00:02:25,913 --> 00:02:27,280 [doorbell rings] 16 00:02:27,414 --> 00:02:28,650 She's here. 17 00:02:29,851 --> 00:02:31,218 Be ready. 18 00:02:32,452 --> 00:02:34,287 HAROLD: You really sure about this? 19 00:02:34,421 --> 00:02:36,791 What happens if she finds out that you-- 20 00:02:36,924 --> 00:02:38,358 [scoffs] 21 00:02:39,794 --> 00:02:41,228 GWEN: Okay. Deep breath for me. 22 00:02:41,361 --> 00:02:44,065 [takes a deep breath] 23 00:02:44,197 --> 00:02:46,400 -Very good. -Hey, jerk. 24 00:02:46,534 --> 00:02:48,503 -Hey, brat. -[Claire coughing] 25 00:02:48,636 --> 00:02:50,404 So, how're we feelin' today, Claire? 26 00:02:51,338 --> 00:02:53,440 Uh, gonna take it easy today. 27 00:02:53,574 --> 00:02:56,010 Probably just a half marathon before I left. 28 00:02:56,144 --> 00:02:57,078 Hmm, how cute. 29 00:02:57,210 --> 00:02:58,513 CLAIRE: Hmm. 30 00:02:58,646 --> 00:03:02,083 Less tired than yesterday and the day before. 31 00:03:02,215 --> 00:03:04,152 Gonna work on some music later today. 32 00:03:05,119 --> 00:03:07,454 GWEN: Uh, I don't think you should be driving to the studio. 33 00:03:07,588 --> 00:03:09,857 I sold the studio. 34 00:03:09,991 --> 00:03:11,859 GWEN: Oh, I'm sorry. 35 00:03:13,628 --> 00:03:15,797 So, uh, what's that? 36 00:03:17,464 --> 00:03:20,735 Special sauce. What's that? 37 00:03:21,602 --> 00:03:23,037 GWEN: Mm, I just wanna see how you're-- 38 00:03:23,171 --> 00:03:24,572 Yeah, I'm still dying. There's nothing new to see. 39 00:03:24,706 --> 00:03:26,239 -MATT: Hey. -I don't wanna be poked 40 00:03:26,373 --> 00:03:28,509 -and prodded anymore, babe. -Claire, we just want an update. 41 00:03:28,643 --> 00:03:31,244 No more surgeries or chemo, I promise. 42 00:03:32,613 --> 00:03:34,015 Won't take long. Come on. 43 00:03:34,148 --> 00:03:35,717 [sighs] 44 00:03:35,850 --> 00:03:38,052 There we go. Alright, make a fist for me. 45 00:03:38,186 --> 00:03:39,620 Mm-hmm. 46 00:03:43,091 --> 00:03:43,958 Doing good. 47 00:03:44,092 --> 00:03:52,633 [♪♪♪] 48 00:03:53,901 --> 00:03:55,268 -That wasn't hard. -CLAIRE: Mm-hmm. 49 00:03:55,402 --> 00:03:57,004 -Um, bend your ear for a minute? -Hmm? 50 00:03:57,138 --> 00:03:58,405 Talk outside. 51 00:03:58,539 --> 00:04:00,141 Um, yeah. Sure. 52 00:04:00,273 --> 00:04:01,676 Bring her back soon. 53 00:04:01,809 --> 00:04:04,679 Wanna hear all about that second date with Doug. 54 00:04:04,812 --> 00:04:05,880 [door opens] 55 00:04:06,013 --> 00:04:08,182 Hey, who does a girl got to screw around here 56 00:04:08,315 --> 00:04:09,584 to get a drink? 57 00:04:12,486 --> 00:04:14,321 MATT: [indistinct speech] Sippy sippy. 58 00:04:14,454 --> 00:04:16,423 Sippy sippy, hmm? 59 00:04:16,557 --> 00:04:18,526 -And kissy kissy. -MATT: Kissy kissy. 60 00:04:19,392 --> 00:04:21,229 [kissing] 61 00:04:21,361 --> 00:04:23,363 [chuckles, coughs] 62 00:04:24,799 --> 00:04:27,300 Appreciate the favor, checkin' in on her. 63 00:04:27,434 --> 00:04:28,401 -Yeah, of course. -That means a lot 64 00:04:28,536 --> 00:04:29,904 to both of us, really. 65 00:04:30,037 --> 00:04:32,907 Uh, I mean, it's the least I can do. 66 00:04:33,040 --> 00:04:35,308 It's nice seein' her and everything. 67 00:04:35,442 --> 00:04:38,579 That's said, I am having second thoughts. 68 00:04:39,847 --> 00:04:42,049 Y-- you asked me to get a sample. I-- 69 00:04:42,183 --> 00:04:44,085 Oh. No, no. I know. [chuckles] 70 00:04:44,218 --> 00:04:46,687 I know I did. It's just um... 71 00:04:46,821 --> 00:04:48,790 [chuckles] Uh, I'm just nervous. 72 00:04:48,923 --> 00:04:51,391 Matt, look, guy at the lab is doing me a solid, 73 00:04:51,526 --> 00:04:53,426 she won't see it on an online portal. 74 00:04:53,561 --> 00:04:54,896 -Thank you. -Yeah. 75 00:04:55,029 --> 00:04:56,697 Um, those green bottle in that box. What's-- 76 00:04:56,831 --> 00:04:58,298 -[chuckles] -What's that about? 77 00:04:58,431 --> 00:05:02,103 Uh, cantaloupe rinds, kale, chlorophyll, 78 00:05:02,236 --> 00:05:04,572 beta carotenes, carrots. 79 00:05:04,705 --> 00:05:06,908 -Ah. -She thinks it helps. 80 00:05:07,041 --> 00:05:08,543 Anyway, I should get back in there. 81 00:05:08,676 --> 00:05:12,246 -It's a busy day. -Whoa, um, wait. 82 00:05:12,379 --> 00:05:14,982 -What's up? -Uh, nightmares. 83 00:05:15,116 --> 00:05:17,450 Okay. How frequently is she having them? 84 00:05:18,653 --> 00:05:20,188 -It's not her. -Okay. 85 00:05:20,320 --> 00:05:22,924 Uh, when did they start? 86 00:05:23,057 --> 00:05:25,927 Six weeks ago. 87 00:05:26,060 --> 00:05:28,229 Seven-- seven weeks ago. 88 00:05:28,361 --> 00:05:29,429 Seven and a half weeks-- 89 00:05:29,564 --> 00:05:31,899 [scoffs] Eight-- eight weeks ago. 90 00:05:32,033 --> 00:05:35,402 Around the time she stopped chemo, right? 91 00:05:36,804 --> 00:05:39,439 I mean, she's more lucid now that-- 92 00:05:39,574 --> 00:05:41,142 Um, it was a big decision you made. 93 00:05:41,275 --> 00:05:42,643 That's Claire's decision. 94 00:05:44,111 --> 00:05:45,980 Well, I mean, nightmares can often 95 00:05:46,113 --> 00:05:47,281 be an indicator of grief. 96 00:05:47,414 --> 00:05:48,683 We're not there yet. 97 00:05:50,117 --> 00:05:53,955 Okay. Um, may I ask has she been smoking? 98 00:05:54,088 --> 00:05:55,022 That's-- [chuckles] 99 00:05:55,156 --> 00:05:56,724 Her lungs were wheezy. 100 00:05:56,858 --> 00:05:58,326 -HAROLD: Hey. -Hi. 101 00:05:58,458 --> 00:06:00,194 Actually, I was going back in there. 102 00:06:00,328 --> 00:06:01,896 Oh, no, no. Uh, she's um, 103 00:06:02,029 --> 00:06:04,532 she's doin' the uh, toilet stuff. 104 00:06:04,665 --> 00:06:05,933 Yeah, you don't-- you don't wanna go in there. 105 00:06:06,067 --> 00:06:08,102 Oh, right. Okay. 106 00:06:09,136 --> 00:06:09,937 -Bye. [chuckles] -Bye. 107 00:06:10,071 --> 00:06:11,305 Thank you. 108 00:06:11,438 --> 00:06:14,308 [door opens, closes] 109 00:06:14,441 --> 00:06:16,911 [exhales] Fuck. 110 00:06:18,212 --> 00:06:19,146 -[whooshes] -Wow. 111 00:06:19,280 --> 00:06:21,249 [chuckles] 112 00:06:21,381 --> 00:06:22,683 You got it? 113 00:06:26,320 --> 00:06:28,388 Okay. 114 00:06:30,791 --> 00:06:32,860 What the hell do you need her blood for anyway? 115 00:06:33,761 --> 00:06:35,096 Second opinion. 116 00:06:36,396 --> 00:06:37,865 Right. 117 00:06:37,999 --> 00:06:39,667 And, uh, what's gonna happen when she checks her bag 118 00:06:39,800 --> 00:06:41,068 and this isn't in there? 119 00:06:41,869 --> 00:06:43,938 We'll burn that bridge when we come to it. 120 00:06:45,940 --> 00:06:47,708 You're gonna help me downstairs or what? 121 00:06:47,842 --> 00:06:49,409 I gotta get her prescriptions. 122 00:06:49,543 --> 00:06:56,483 [♪♪♪] 123 00:06:56,617 --> 00:06:58,786 Haven't seen you in a while. 124 00:06:58,920 --> 00:06:59,954 I'm busy. 125 00:07:00,721 --> 00:07:02,089 How's she doing? 126 00:07:04,926 --> 00:07:06,093 Sorry. 127 00:07:07,460 --> 00:07:08,963 How's your mom? 128 00:07:09,830 --> 00:07:13,501 This morning, she screamed at me 129 00:07:13,634 --> 00:07:14,635 claiming I was a demon 130 00:07:14,769 --> 00:07:16,304 wearing the skin of her daughter. 131 00:07:16,436 --> 00:07:19,006 So, yeah. 132 00:07:20,141 --> 00:07:21,542 Dementia? 133 00:07:21,676 --> 00:07:23,110 Alzheimer's. 134 00:07:24,211 --> 00:07:25,478 I'm sorry. 135 00:07:26,614 --> 00:07:28,983 Should we take for the ones we love? 136 00:07:33,721 --> 00:07:36,157 Anyway, um, holler if you need anything. 137 00:07:37,992 --> 00:07:39,093 Matches? 138 00:07:43,297 --> 00:07:44,832 Thank you. 139 00:07:49,337 --> 00:07:50,771 Matthew Quimby, right? 140 00:07:51,539 --> 00:07:54,442 Matt. Albert Evans? 141 00:07:54,575 --> 00:07:55,743 Yeah, Al. 142 00:07:55,876 --> 00:07:59,479 Um, hey, miss. Excuse me, sweetie? 143 00:08:00,314 --> 00:08:02,683 Could I get a tonic, if you don't mind? 144 00:08:04,051 --> 00:08:05,219 Thank you. 145 00:08:05,353 --> 00:08:06,454 [sighs] 146 00:08:07,288 --> 00:08:09,256 -Did you bring it? -Uh, I'm tired. 147 00:08:09,390 --> 00:08:11,092 Did you bring it? 148 00:08:11,225 --> 00:08:13,160 Yeah, I brought it. It's in the car. 149 00:08:14,028 --> 00:08:16,597 -Let's move it to mine. -No [indistinct speech] 150 00:08:19,433 --> 00:08:20,801 You can't move it, you know? 151 00:08:20,935 --> 00:08:23,604 -Jesus. -L-- let me ask you somethin'. 152 00:08:23,738 --> 00:08:25,706 You be honest with me, okay? 153 00:08:27,508 --> 00:08:29,010 Are you sure you wanna do this? 154 00:08:39,453 --> 00:08:43,491 [both grunt] 155 00:08:43,624 --> 00:08:53,134 [♪♪♪] 156 00:09:03,110 --> 00:09:04,712 [Claire coughing] 157 00:09:04,845 --> 00:09:06,480 You alright, baby? 158 00:09:06,614 --> 00:09:07,815 HAROLD: She's fine. 159 00:09:11,652 --> 00:09:15,956 [both grunt] 160 00:09:32,039 --> 00:09:35,544 [coughs] 161 00:09:35,676 --> 00:09:39,947 [grunts, pants] 162 00:09:45,753 --> 00:09:47,021 Okay. 163 00:09:48,889 --> 00:09:50,257 [indistinct speech] 164 00:09:53,427 --> 00:09:57,598 [both grunt] 165 00:10:00,067 --> 00:10:01,602 Okay. 166 00:10:03,804 --> 00:10:05,206 Okay. 167 00:10:07,274 --> 00:10:08,876 Alright. 168 00:10:09,009 --> 00:10:10,311 [grunts] 169 00:10:11,645 --> 00:10:12,980 AL: Okay. 170 00:10:13,948 --> 00:10:15,683 You get your wife's blood? 171 00:10:16,585 --> 00:10:19,086 -Yes, Al. -AL: Okay. 172 00:10:20,721 --> 00:10:24,291 So, the ritual, uh, you wait until dark, 173 00:10:24,425 --> 00:10:25,759 you light a candle, 174 00:10:26,727 --> 00:10:28,362 you place it on the floor, 175 00:10:30,364 --> 00:10:31,699 then you open it up, 176 00:10:32,500 --> 00:10:35,302 and you pour your wife's blood into its mouth. 177 00:10:35,436 --> 00:10:38,272 You step back and you speak your intention 178 00:10:39,673 --> 00:10:41,041 only once. 179 00:10:41,175 --> 00:10:43,545 And then you never come into this room again 180 00:10:43,677 --> 00:10:44,879 until it works. 181 00:10:45,012 --> 00:10:46,447 -How long does it take? -Three days. 182 00:10:46,581 --> 00:10:49,618 After you've done the ritual, there's three rules. 183 00:10:49,750 --> 00:10:51,118 Don't talk to it. 184 00:10:52,353 --> 00:10:53,721 Don't look at it. 185 00:10:57,424 --> 00:10:58,859 And don't touch it. 186 00:10:59,994 --> 00:11:02,096 Why would I talk to a bag? 187 00:11:02,830 --> 00:11:05,332 Why does anyone do anything? 188 00:11:06,433 --> 00:11:08,836 Just follow the rules. 189 00:11:13,974 --> 00:11:23,350 [♪♪♪] 190 00:11:36,096 --> 00:11:37,431 You made this today? 191 00:11:37,566 --> 00:11:39,967 Mm-hmm. What do you think? 192 00:11:40,100 --> 00:11:43,704 It's haunting, and beautiful, 193 00:11:43,837 --> 00:11:45,806 and terrifying, and... 194 00:11:47,741 --> 00:11:48,976 ...lovely. 195 00:11:50,811 --> 00:11:52,514 -Thank you kindly. -What do you think? 196 00:11:52,647 --> 00:11:54,315 I guess I liked the demo better. 197 00:11:55,216 --> 00:11:57,051 It was more raw, stripped down. 198 00:11:57,184 --> 00:12:00,454 Well, this is like you zeroed in on something strange. 199 00:12:00,589 --> 00:12:03,658 But what I was going for is unrecognizable now. 200 00:12:03,791 --> 00:12:05,292 You found something new. 201 00:12:06,126 --> 00:12:07,361 Part of the journey. 202 00:12:08,462 --> 00:12:09,698 I suppose. 203 00:12:09,830 --> 00:12:10,864 So, what are you tryin' to say with this? 204 00:12:10,998 --> 00:12:13,200 Like what's it mean? 205 00:12:14,168 --> 00:12:17,271 Uh, I don't know if I'm tryin' to say anything really. 206 00:12:18,072 --> 00:12:23,110 Just I need it to be parasitic. 207 00:12:24,111 --> 00:12:28,182 To burrow in your brain and live there. 208 00:12:28,315 --> 00:12:32,019 Well, mission accomplished. 209 00:12:32,152 --> 00:12:33,287 Hmm. 210 00:12:35,489 --> 00:12:36,290 I'm really proud of you. 211 00:12:36,423 --> 00:12:39,026 [upbeat music] 212 00:12:39,159 --> 00:12:41,028 God, I suck at this. 213 00:12:41,161 --> 00:12:42,896 CLAIRE: Yeah, you definitely do. 214 00:12:43,030 --> 00:12:45,032 Harold popped in while you were out. 215 00:12:45,165 --> 00:12:49,837 I asked him about the basement, but he was a steel trap. 216 00:12:50,804 --> 00:12:52,973 That's family loyalty right there. 217 00:12:55,109 --> 00:12:56,745 What kinda deviant shit-- 218 00:12:56,877 --> 00:12:59,714 [coughs] Are you two-- 219 00:12:59,847 --> 00:13:01,315 G-- getting-- 220 00:13:01,448 --> 00:13:03,250 What's wrong? 221 00:13:04,818 --> 00:13:09,323 [pukes, coughs] 222 00:13:10,692 --> 00:13:12,026 Sorry. 223 00:13:12,159 --> 00:13:14,862 It's okay. It's okay. 224 00:13:15,896 --> 00:13:17,031 You deserve better. 225 00:13:17,164 --> 00:13:21,536 Hey. In sickness and in health, okay? 226 00:13:22,671 --> 00:13:23,638 I don't deserve you. 227 00:13:23,772 --> 00:13:25,406 Shh. 228 00:13:28,543 --> 00:13:29,910 [kisses] 229 00:13:36,016 --> 00:13:38,385 What are you working on down there? 230 00:13:46,293 --> 00:13:48,062 What if I told you I found somethin' 231 00:13:48,195 --> 00:13:52,801 that could fix all of our problems? 232 00:13:52,933 --> 00:13:57,071 But it came at a cost. 233 00:13:58,372 --> 00:13:59,641 What's the cost? 234 00:13:59,774 --> 00:14:01,241 I, uh... 235 00:14:03,511 --> 00:14:04,878 I don't know. 236 00:14:06,280 --> 00:14:09,850 Matt, are you smoking gateways again? 237 00:14:09,983 --> 00:14:12,386 -Gateways? -Are you smoking weed again? 238 00:14:12,520 --> 00:14:14,855 You know, it scrambles your brain like eggs. 239 00:14:15,889 --> 00:14:17,124 -Are you? -Of course not. 240 00:14:17,257 --> 00:14:19,860 If I did, I mean, I'm the one with cancer. 241 00:14:19,993 --> 00:14:21,462 So... 242 00:14:21,596 --> 00:14:22,664 Bedtime. 243 00:14:22,797 --> 00:14:24,131 Night, babe. 244 00:14:28,302 --> 00:14:28,869 [kissing] 245 00:14:29,002 --> 00:14:38,278 [♪♪♪] 246 00:15:00,769 --> 00:15:05,272 Please heal Claire. Please. 247 00:15:06,508 --> 00:15:08,175 [sighs] 248 00:15:16,984 --> 00:15:18,185 [lighter thuds] 249 00:15:19,554 --> 00:15:21,021 Shit. 250 00:15:44,512 --> 00:15:48,482 MATT: Please heal Claire. Please. 251 00:15:57,224 --> 00:15:58,626 CLAIRE: Jerk. 252 00:16:00,027 --> 00:16:01,995 HAROLD: So, um, 253 00:16:03,397 --> 00:16:05,098 why did you decide to quit chemo? 254 00:16:05,232 --> 00:16:07,669 Jesus, buy me dinner first. 255 00:16:07,802 --> 00:16:09,537 HAROLD: Sorry. 256 00:16:09,671 --> 00:16:12,139 This is a cool thing you're doing, though. 257 00:16:12,272 --> 00:16:13,942 Surprisin' her with the studio. She'll-- 258 00:16:14,074 --> 00:16:16,143 -I think she'll dig it. -CLAIRE: Matt! 259 00:16:17,144 --> 00:16:19,379 Hey, uh, you remember Amy, right? 260 00:16:20,247 --> 00:16:21,583 -CLAIRE: Matthew! -She-- actually, I don't-- 261 00:16:21,716 --> 00:16:23,751 I don't know if I ever even really told you, 262 00:16:23,885 --> 00:16:25,052 -but uh-- -CLAIRE: Please! 263 00:16:25,185 --> 00:16:26,386 She had a pretty rough go with things 264 00:16:26,521 --> 00:16:27,722 about ten years back when her son-- 265 00:16:27,856 --> 00:16:29,490 CLAIRE: Matthew! 266 00:16:36,263 --> 00:16:42,302 [♪♪♪] 267 00:16:42,436 --> 00:16:44,772 AL: (On voicemail) This is Al. Leave me one. 268 00:16:44,906 --> 00:16:47,374 MATT: Hey, uh, some weird shit's happening. 269 00:16:47,509 --> 00:16:49,209 Just call me back, okay? 270 00:16:49,343 --> 00:16:53,447 [phone rings] 271 00:16:55,583 --> 00:16:57,952 -Hello. -[Claire giggling] 272 00:16:58,085 --> 00:16:59,621 [call ends] 273 00:17:22,075 --> 00:17:23,545 [groans] 274 00:17:26,748 --> 00:17:28,516 CLAIRE: Is it happening again? Is it happening again? 275 00:17:28,650 --> 00:17:30,317 Is it happening again? Is it happening again? 276 00:17:30,450 --> 00:17:31,920 Is it happening again? Is it happening again? 277 00:17:32,052 --> 00:17:33,588 Is it happening again? Is it happening again? 278 00:17:33,721 --> 00:17:36,056 Is it... 279 00:17:36,189 --> 00:17:37,457 [garbled speech] 280 00:17:37,592 --> 00:17:39,359 [groans] 281 00:17:41,696 --> 00:17:50,638 [♪♪♪] 282 00:18:05,319 --> 00:18:08,322 [grunts] Did you sleep alright? 283 00:18:08,455 --> 00:18:09,991 You seem like you're a little out of it. 284 00:18:10,123 --> 00:18:12,026 Yeah, yeah, I'm fine. 285 00:18:12,159 --> 00:18:14,261 How's the music comin'? 286 00:18:14,394 --> 00:18:16,631 Good. Working it out. 287 00:18:18,566 --> 00:18:20,133 What's the concept again? 288 00:18:20,267 --> 00:18:23,705 You remember when we got that amazing bottle of Riesling? 289 00:18:23,838 --> 00:18:25,039 I do. 290 00:18:25,172 --> 00:18:26,507 [chuckles] 291 00:18:26,641 --> 00:18:29,276 I was inspired by the fungus process 292 00:18:29,409 --> 00:18:32,112 you told me about, with the wine. 293 00:18:32,245 --> 00:18:33,648 You remember? 294 00:18:34,749 --> 00:18:37,217 They let the fungus infect the grapes, 295 00:18:37,351 --> 00:18:40,287 nearly overtaking them, 296 00:18:40,420 --> 00:18:43,758 and then they pick them at just the right moment. 297 00:18:44,926 --> 00:18:46,995 And you're left with the sweetest one, 298 00:18:47,127 --> 00:18:48,896 this side of the Mississippi. 299 00:18:50,197 --> 00:18:52,466 -It's Germany. -Whatever. 300 00:18:52,600 --> 00:18:54,301 What's it called again? 301 00:18:54,434 --> 00:18:56,704 [clears throat] The-- the noble rot. 302 00:18:56,838 --> 00:18:59,574 Noble rot. Yeah. 303 00:19:00,474 --> 00:19:02,043 Hey, it could be the album name. 304 00:19:02,175 --> 00:19:05,680 [both chuckle] 305 00:19:05,813 --> 00:19:10,350 [coughs] 306 00:19:10,484 --> 00:19:12,120 -[overlapping speech] -No. I'm not gonna puke. 307 00:19:12,252 --> 00:19:14,756 [coughs] 308 00:19:16,057 --> 00:19:17,558 MATT: Claire, here. 309 00:19:17,692 --> 00:19:18,860 Thanks. 310 00:19:24,398 --> 00:19:26,166 [sighs] 311 00:19:30,404 --> 00:19:32,172 Hey, uh, uh, 312 00:19:33,306 --> 00:19:35,877 you're not smokin', are you, Claire? 313 00:19:36,010 --> 00:19:39,413 I reckon there's a response about pots and black kettles. 314 00:19:39,547 --> 00:19:42,050 -Shut up. -Hmm. 315 00:19:42,182 --> 00:19:43,483 CLAIRE: Jerk. 316 00:19:43,618 --> 00:19:44,786 Brat. 317 00:19:47,789 --> 00:19:49,289 [Kissing] 318 00:19:51,291 --> 00:19:52,827 CLAIRE: Matt. 319 00:19:55,328 --> 00:19:56,731 Matthew. 320 00:20:17,217 --> 00:20:18,853 Will you let me in? 321 00:20:22,456 --> 00:20:30,798 [♪♪♪] 322 00:20:30,932 --> 00:20:33,300 CLAIRE: [indistinct speech] 323 00:20:47,181 --> 00:20:50,618 It should be you, not me. 324 00:20:56,557 --> 00:21:00,828 I said, "You should be the one with cancer. 325 00:21:00,962 --> 00:21:02,630 Not me." 326 00:21:02,764 --> 00:21:06,266 I never did anything to deserve this. 327 00:21:15,442 --> 00:21:17,277 How did you know I was... 328 00:21:18,311 --> 00:21:19,814 [clears throat] 329 00:21:22,517 --> 00:21:25,186 Uh, were you, um-- 330 00:21:25,318 --> 00:21:28,321 -[sighs] -Were you whispering? 331 00:21:32,093 --> 00:21:33,528 Okay. 332 00:21:35,129 --> 00:21:36,831 Can I, uh-- [clears throat] 333 00:21:36,964 --> 00:21:39,700 -Can I get you anything? -Hmm. Mm-hmm. 334 00:21:39,834 --> 00:21:41,936 Another juice would be great. 335 00:21:50,545 --> 00:21:54,849 [phone ringing] 336 00:21:57,819 --> 00:21:59,587 Hello. 337 00:21:59,720 --> 00:22:02,890 CLAIRE: You ever seen someone you love ravaged by chondrosarcoma? 338 00:22:03,024 --> 00:22:05,560 Not just her arms and legs, but in her skull. 339 00:22:05,693 --> 00:22:07,494 Cells producing their own cartilage, 340 00:22:07,628 --> 00:22:09,030 growing out of control. 341 00:22:09,163 --> 00:22:10,698 Tiny spikes pushing against her tissue, 342 00:22:10,832 --> 00:22:12,365 the pain unbearable! 343 00:22:12,499 --> 00:22:14,635 And here you are just staring at her, 344 00:22:14,769 --> 00:22:17,038 like anything you do matters. 345 00:22:21,474 --> 00:22:24,946 [music ends] 346 00:22:38,092 --> 00:22:40,061 [grunts] 347 00:22:40,194 --> 00:22:41,662 CLAIRE: Can't you just enjoy the time I have left and let me die? 348 00:22:41,796 --> 00:22:43,831 God, you're a selfish piece of shit. 349 00:22:43,965 --> 00:22:46,499 Shut up. 350 00:22:47,301 --> 00:22:56,409 [♪♪♪] 351 00:22:57,645 --> 00:22:59,146 CLAIRE: Jerk. 352 00:23:10,591 --> 00:23:13,027 Alright, now. How about we hit the links? 353 00:23:14,195 --> 00:23:15,696 You remember my ex-wife? 354 00:23:16,429 --> 00:23:18,266 -Esther? -HAROLD: Before that. 355 00:23:18,398 --> 00:23:20,400 -Miranda? -First ex-wife. 356 00:23:21,335 --> 00:23:22,603 Amy. 357 00:23:22,737 --> 00:23:24,739 I don't know if I ever told you, but uh, 358 00:23:25,740 --> 00:23:30,144 Amy uh, had a son from a previous marriage. 359 00:23:32,346 --> 00:23:34,815 And his name was Tommy. 360 00:23:37,385 --> 00:23:41,389 Tommy had neuroblastoma and they didn't catch it. 361 00:23:41,522 --> 00:23:43,124 After he passed-- 362 00:23:45,092 --> 00:23:45,993 [sighs] 363 00:23:46,127 --> 00:23:48,062 Amy just spiraled. 364 00:23:48,996 --> 00:23:52,366 You know, she blamed herself, and that just haunted her, 365 00:23:52,499 --> 00:23:53,801 And she-- [chuckles] 366 00:23:53,935 --> 00:23:55,870 She said she saw him at night for months. 367 00:24:01,108 --> 00:24:03,544 [sighs] I just don't wanna see you end up like Amy. 368 00:24:03,678 --> 00:24:04,979 That's all. 369 00:24:06,113 --> 00:24:08,950 'Cause that guilt, that guilt, man, 370 00:24:10,584 --> 00:24:12,653 it swallowed her up. 371 00:24:17,490 --> 00:24:19,427 Oh, shit. 372 00:24:19,560 --> 00:24:21,494 Don't. It's fine. 373 00:24:21,629 --> 00:24:22,897 It's fine, it's the next room. 374 00:24:23,030 --> 00:24:24,532 Just don't. I'll get it tomorrow, okay? 375 00:24:24,665 --> 00:24:25,933 It's ten feet away. 376 00:24:26,067 --> 00:24:28,169 Leave the goddamn golf ball where it is! 377 00:24:29,469 --> 00:24:31,939 -Sorry. -Fuckin' playin'. 378 00:24:32,073 --> 00:24:41,115 [♪♪♪] 379 00:25:08,676 --> 00:25:10,811 [grunts] 380 00:25:15,349 --> 00:25:19,286 [Claire giggling] 381 00:25:23,224 --> 00:25:32,099 [♪♪♪] 382 00:25:49,817 --> 00:25:51,986 [birds chirping] 383 00:25:52,119 --> 00:25:54,722 [Claire giggling] 384 00:25:58,726 --> 00:26:08,202 [♪♪♪] 385 00:26:17,278 --> 00:26:18,579 What do you want? 386 00:26:30,324 --> 00:26:31,025 [car horns] 387 00:26:31,158 --> 00:26:32,660 [door opens] 388 00:26:32,793 --> 00:26:35,196 [pants] 389 00:26:35,329 --> 00:26:36,797 Oh. 390 00:26:36,931 --> 00:26:40,201 Oh, my God. Oh, my God. 391 00:26:42,803 --> 00:26:47,208 [coughs, pukes] 392 00:26:55,249 --> 00:26:58,152 Oh. Mm. 393 00:26:59,286 --> 00:27:00,287 Oh! 394 00:27:04,191 --> 00:27:05,359 What's wrong? 395 00:27:09,763 --> 00:27:11,365 Is it happening again? 396 00:27:12,433 --> 00:27:15,870 A-- are you s-- seeing... 397 00:27:17,671 --> 00:27:18,939 Hey. 398 00:27:19,840 --> 00:27:22,977 There is no shame in asking for help. 399 00:27:23,110 --> 00:27:24,178 Clearly. 400 00:27:25,379 --> 00:27:26,914 Look at me. 401 00:27:27,047 --> 00:27:29,750 I have to do it every damn day. 402 00:27:29,884 --> 00:27:31,385 It doesn't matter. You're getting better. 403 00:27:31,520 --> 00:27:33,787 [chuckles] 404 00:27:34,623 --> 00:27:35,890 [kisses] 405 00:27:36,023 --> 00:27:40,828 [♪♪♪] 406 00:27:40,961 --> 00:27:42,363 So, how's Claire doing? 407 00:27:43,731 --> 00:27:45,266 How are you doing? 408 00:27:50,104 --> 00:27:52,541 So, what is that thing in there? 409 00:27:52,673 --> 00:27:54,208 -What? -That big weird sack 410 00:27:54,341 --> 00:27:55,676 in the spare room. 411 00:27:56,710 --> 00:27:58,112 You didn't go in there, did you? 412 00:27:58,245 --> 00:27:59,648 Oh, goddammit! 413 00:27:59,780 --> 00:28:01,215 -What? -I told you not to! 414 00:28:01,348 --> 00:28:03,284 -Just relax. -Did you talk to it? 415 00:28:03,417 --> 00:28:05,452 Yeah. Told it some fuckin' knock knock jokes. 416 00:28:05,587 --> 00:28:06,555 Did you look at it? 417 00:28:06,687 --> 00:28:08,222 It's hard not to. 418 00:28:08,355 --> 00:28:10,824 -Did you touch it? -What happens if you touch it? 419 00:28:10,958 --> 00:28:12,826 Please tell me, did you fucking touch it? 420 00:28:12,960 --> 00:28:15,829 No! Jesus! 421 00:28:17,264 --> 00:28:19,300 What the hell is goin' on with you? 422 00:28:21,235 --> 00:28:24,271 I'm not givin' up on wife and I never will. 423 00:28:24,405 --> 00:28:26,240 Got it? 424 00:28:26,373 --> 00:28:27,841 I didn't ask you to. 425 00:28:30,110 --> 00:28:31,779 I'll finish up alone. 426 00:28:33,247 --> 00:28:34,748 Thank you. 427 00:28:36,951 --> 00:28:39,386 Look, I know you're goin' through a lot, 428 00:28:39,521 --> 00:28:41,488 but you need to take a fuckin' breath. 429 00:28:50,798 --> 00:28:53,167 Thanks for hangin' out the other day. 430 00:28:55,503 --> 00:28:57,104 Of course. 431 00:28:59,139 --> 00:29:01,676 Do you mind leaving me the pen? 432 00:29:01,809 --> 00:29:04,144 I could use a little creative spark. 433 00:29:07,448 --> 00:29:09,250 Hey, um... 434 00:29:15,657 --> 00:29:17,191 ...why did you stop chemo? 435 00:29:23,097 --> 00:29:24,465 I'm glad you're there for him. 436 00:29:24,599 --> 00:29:27,736 [upbeat music] 437 00:29:27,868 --> 00:29:29,436 Make sure you keep that going. 438 00:29:31,205 --> 00:29:33,240 He's gonna need you more than ever soon. 439 00:29:35,909 --> 00:29:37,579 I know he seems like he's Mr. Slick, 440 00:29:37,712 --> 00:29:39,514 but he's... 441 00:29:43,984 --> 00:29:46,487 Just be there. 442 00:29:48,088 --> 00:29:49,923 You didn't answer my question. 443 00:29:57,398 --> 00:29:59,800 [both chuckle] 444 00:29:59,933 --> 00:30:09,276 [♪♪♪] 445 00:30:29,063 --> 00:30:31,633 Why is it always the dark pieces that trip us up? 446 00:30:31,766 --> 00:30:34,068 It's easy to get lost in there. 447 00:30:38,540 --> 00:30:39,774 How about we go outside? 448 00:30:39,907 --> 00:30:41,375 It's cold outside. 449 00:30:44,445 --> 00:30:46,648 It'll be warm next week and I'll take you out then. 450 00:30:46,781 --> 00:30:48,215 I promise. 451 00:30:50,284 --> 00:30:51,485 Okay. 452 00:30:57,458 --> 00:30:59,426 [upbeat music] 453 00:31:01,495 --> 00:31:02,896 [Claire chuckling] 454 00:31:19,614 --> 00:31:21,048 You're taking me? 455 00:31:22,950 --> 00:31:24,451 As close as I can. 456 00:31:25,587 --> 00:31:27,321 Oh, no, thanks, baby. 457 00:31:32,727 --> 00:31:36,964 [coughs, sighs] 458 00:31:40,367 --> 00:31:44,338 We used to sit in here for hours. 459 00:31:45,305 --> 00:31:48,909 Sipping wine, listening to good music, 460 00:31:49,042 --> 00:31:50,645 eating good food. 461 00:31:50,779 --> 00:31:55,449 Harold always introducing us to his latest squeeze. 462 00:31:55,583 --> 00:32:00,053 I can still picture that look you'd tossed me. 463 00:32:01,455 --> 00:32:02,423 That look. 464 00:32:02,557 --> 00:32:04,324 [both chuckle] 465 00:32:04,458 --> 00:32:09,096 That look of, "Oh, this is never going to last." 466 00:32:09,229 --> 00:32:11,365 Poor guy can't get out of his own way. 467 00:32:12,132 --> 00:32:13,267 He means well. 468 00:32:13,400 --> 00:32:14,903 [scoffs] 469 00:32:15,035 --> 00:32:16,370 Most poor guys do. 470 00:32:16,504 --> 00:32:18,540 [chuckles] 471 00:32:18,673 --> 00:32:22,577 [coughs] 472 00:32:25,880 --> 00:32:27,214 [chuckles] 473 00:32:28,850 --> 00:32:31,351 Poor, poor guy. 474 00:32:44,031 --> 00:32:45,633 [grunts] 475 00:33:04,117 --> 00:33:05,753 Let's get you to bed, okay. 476 00:33:05,887 --> 00:33:08,222 What? Matt, come on. It's-- 477 00:33:09,657 --> 00:33:18,465 [♪♪♪] 478 00:33:18,600 --> 00:33:21,235 [phone rings] 479 00:33:43,858 --> 00:33:45,793 [sighs] 480 00:34:12,152 --> 00:34:13,521 -[screams] -[yells] 481 00:34:13,655 --> 00:34:23,063 [♪♪♪] 482 00:34:45,987 --> 00:34:52,727 [♪♪♪] 483 00:34:52,860 --> 00:34:55,930 [takes deep breaths] 484 00:34:56,064 --> 00:34:59,033 AL: (On voicemail) This is Al. Leave me one. 485 00:34:59,166 --> 00:35:02,637 It's Matt. Call me back please. 486 00:35:05,807 --> 00:35:07,508 [phone ringing] 487 00:35:08,977 --> 00:35:10,912 CLAIRE: Is it happening again? Is it happening again? 488 00:35:11,045 --> 00:35:13,347 Is it happening again? Is it happening again? 489 00:35:17,284 --> 00:35:26,828 [♪♪♪] 490 00:35:37,038 --> 00:35:38,673 You got yourself into your chair? 491 00:35:38,806 --> 00:35:39,907 Mm-hmm. 492 00:35:41,375 --> 00:35:43,343 [chuckles] 493 00:35:45,647 --> 00:35:47,615 CLAIRE: Baby, check this out. 494 00:35:50,718 --> 00:35:52,386 [grunts] 495 00:35:52,520 --> 00:35:53,621 Come on, Claire. Hang on a second. 496 00:35:53,755 --> 00:35:55,623 CLAIRE: No, no, no. Just shut up. 497 00:35:55,757 --> 00:35:57,692 [chuckles] 498 00:35:57,825 --> 00:35:59,459 I got it. 499 00:36:01,194 --> 00:36:03,363 -Oh, my God. -[chuckles] 500 00:36:03,497 --> 00:36:04,799 -Check me out. -Oh, my God. 501 00:36:04,932 --> 00:36:07,135 [chuckles, coughs] 502 00:36:07,267 --> 00:36:09,236 I did it. I did it. 503 00:36:09,369 --> 00:36:11,238 I can help. What are you... 504 00:36:11,371 --> 00:36:12,640 -What are you doin'? -Making banana bread. 505 00:36:12,774 --> 00:36:15,242 -You're making banana bread? -Yeah. 506 00:36:15,375 --> 00:36:16,309 You will help me make banana bread? 507 00:36:16,443 --> 00:36:18,579 I wanna help you. [chuckles] 508 00:36:18,713 --> 00:36:20,148 Okay. 509 00:36:20,280 --> 00:36:22,016 Just like the old days. 510 00:36:22,850 --> 00:36:25,920 What do we got? What do we got? Oh, you got a nice, fresh... 511 00:36:27,789 --> 00:36:28,923 What's wrong? 512 00:36:30,024 --> 00:36:31,391 Nothing, honey. Nothing's wrong. 513 00:36:31,526 --> 00:36:32,760 -[chuckles] -It's... 514 00:36:32,894 --> 00:36:36,097 Here, I can do [indistinct speech] 515 00:36:36,229 --> 00:36:38,298 Can you uh, can you uh, pass me the [indistinct speech] 516 00:36:38,432 --> 00:36:41,301 Yeah, yeah, yeah. Can I pass the what? 517 00:36:44,237 --> 00:36:45,707 What's the matter? 518 00:36:47,542 --> 00:36:49,677 CLAIRE: You know, you were right. 519 00:36:51,012 --> 00:36:52,814 I feel different. 520 00:36:54,448 --> 00:36:56,483 Something in me in changing. 521 00:36:56,617 --> 00:36:59,386 It's inside of me. 522 00:36:59,520 --> 00:37:03,223 I-- I feel better. 523 00:37:03,356 --> 00:37:04,859 I feel new. 524 00:37:06,460 --> 00:37:07,662 [indistinct speech] 525 00:37:07,795 --> 00:37:08,896 Get off me! 526 00:37:14,135 --> 00:37:15,970 Sorry, I bothered you. 527 00:37:17,205 --> 00:37:18,639 I'm sorry. 528 00:37:18,773 --> 00:37:19,774 -Guess I'll go fuck myself then. -MATT: Claire, I'm sorry. 529 00:37:19,907 --> 00:37:21,441 Don't! 530 00:37:22,577 --> 00:37:32,285 [♪♪♪] 531 00:37:44,232 --> 00:37:46,366 [phone rings] 532 00:37:46,500 --> 00:37:48,301 [Claire giggling] 533 00:37:49,103 --> 00:37:53,406 [knocking on door] 534 00:37:53,541 --> 00:38:02,750 [♪♪♪] 535 00:38:24,772 --> 00:38:26,741 Let me in, dick. It's cold. 536 00:38:31,078 --> 00:38:32,445 -I knew you'd be up. -I figured we could talk 537 00:38:32,580 --> 00:38:34,347 -about shit, you know? -Shh. 538 00:38:34,481 --> 00:38:35,716 [door closes] 539 00:38:35,850 --> 00:38:38,451 [pours wine] 540 00:38:39,921 --> 00:38:41,122 What is this? 541 00:38:41,255 --> 00:38:42,957 Banana bread. 542 00:38:43,090 --> 00:38:43,991 Fuck yeah. 543 00:38:44,125 --> 00:38:45,458 Okay. 544 00:38:49,664 --> 00:38:53,601 So, hey, um, I'm sorry about uh, 545 00:38:53,734 --> 00:38:54,936 I some-- sometimes I just 546 00:38:55,069 --> 00:38:57,805 can't stay out of my own way, you know? 547 00:38:59,073 --> 00:39:02,977 It's just uh, I am here for you, you know? 548 00:39:03,110 --> 00:39:06,547 I guess-- I guess that's all I'm trying to say. 549 00:39:09,283 --> 00:39:11,052 So, uh, so, Amy, 550 00:39:12,620 --> 00:39:15,022 you said she started seein' her son 551 00:39:15,156 --> 00:39:16,924 right after he passed, yeah? 552 00:39:17,058 --> 00:39:18,526 Yeah, all the time. 553 00:39:20,561 --> 00:39:22,096 I'm seeing things, too. 554 00:39:23,264 --> 00:39:24,832 You spend too much time alone. 555 00:39:25,867 --> 00:39:26,934 It's just 556 00:39:28,302 --> 00:39:29,971 it's not supposed to happen 557 00:39:30,104 --> 00:39:31,505 until she's-- 558 00:39:31,639 --> 00:39:34,108 Hey. We don't need to talk about that right now. 559 00:39:38,246 --> 00:39:39,647 Am I losin' it? 560 00:39:40,548 --> 00:39:42,683 Yeah! Look, shit, man, 561 00:39:42,817 --> 00:39:45,019 I mean, if anybody has a right to lose it, it's you. 562 00:39:51,259 --> 00:39:53,828 You're not as hard to read as you think you are. 563 00:39:55,563 --> 00:39:57,031 You just, uh... 564 00:39:58,431 --> 00:40:00,301 You have a hard time saying what you need to say. 565 00:40:00,433 --> 00:40:06,974 [♪♪♪] 566 00:40:07,108 --> 00:40:09,210 These last 18 months 567 00:40:09,343 --> 00:40:12,113 have been the most miserable 568 00:40:12,246 --> 00:40:13,881 of our entire lives. 569 00:40:14,815 --> 00:40:16,717 They started out the most successful. 570 00:40:16,851 --> 00:40:18,085 Yes. 571 00:40:19,720 --> 00:40:21,522 I mean, we got a little... 572 00:40:21,656 --> 00:40:23,557 Bought a house. 573 00:40:24,659 --> 00:40:27,929 Fancy cars, planned vacations. 574 00:40:29,263 --> 00:40:31,198 Talked about kids. 575 00:40:33,401 --> 00:40:34,869 And the person 576 00:40:35,002 --> 00:40:38,873 you are supposed to spend the rest of your life with 577 00:40:39,640 --> 00:40:42,543 starts dying at 32. 578 00:40:42,677 --> 00:40:45,880 But she didn't start at 32, she started at 30. 579 00:40:48,616 --> 00:40:50,151 And I missed it. 580 00:40:52,920 --> 00:40:54,889 'Cause I didn't know to look for it. 581 00:40:55,022 --> 00:40:56,991 [sighs] Jesus. 582 00:40:58,458 --> 00:40:59,961 What kind of a deal is that? 583 00:41:00,928 --> 00:41:02,997 That is a shit deal, sir. 584 00:41:07,201 --> 00:41:09,837 Is there a name for a grim fairytale? 585 00:41:11,105 --> 00:41:12,273 Life. 586 00:41:12,406 --> 00:41:13,774 They don't-- 587 00:41:14,809 --> 00:41:17,011 They don't prepare you for this. 588 00:41:17,144 --> 00:41:18,279 Yeah. 589 00:41:18,412 --> 00:41:19,580 I did-- I did all of it. 590 00:41:19,714 --> 00:41:21,615 I did the support groups. 591 00:41:21,749 --> 00:41:23,483 The therapy. 592 00:41:24,719 --> 00:41:26,654 The fuckin' church. 593 00:41:27,955 --> 00:41:29,190 I did the other stuff. 594 00:41:29,323 --> 00:41:33,427 I did you know, the cults and the drugs. 595 00:41:33,561 --> 00:41:34,962 It's all empty. 596 00:41:35,997 --> 00:41:38,065 All of it's empty. It's... 597 00:41:40,801 --> 00:41:42,770 You just sink. 598 00:41:42,903 --> 00:41:45,072 But you get desperate enough 599 00:41:45,206 --> 00:41:48,642 and those shams start seemin' a lot less hokey. 600 00:41:53,981 --> 00:41:55,816 That's why I'm seein' things. 601 00:42:00,021 --> 00:42:01,689 Huh. 602 00:42:05,059 --> 00:42:06,594 Yeah, um, 603 00:42:08,329 --> 00:42:09,864 I don't exactly, uh-- 604 00:42:11,298 --> 00:42:13,901 Y-- you know, I'm here for you, but just don't-- 605 00:42:14,035 --> 00:42:16,470 Uh, yeah, every-- everything's gonna be fine, 606 00:42:16,604 --> 00:42:17,972 you know? Uh, just 607 00:42:19,006 --> 00:42:20,241 one way or another, cousin, it's-- 608 00:42:20,374 --> 00:42:23,177 It's all gonna work out. 609 00:42:27,114 --> 00:42:28,115 Right. 610 00:42:28,249 --> 00:42:33,621 [♪♪♪] 611 00:42:33,754 --> 00:42:37,825 [car horns] 612 00:43:04,218 --> 00:43:05,719 Oh, no, no. 613 00:43:08,122 --> 00:43:08,823 Uh. 614 00:43:08,956 --> 00:43:13,594 [upbeat music] 615 00:43:13,727 --> 00:43:14,662 Fuck. 616 00:43:14,795 --> 00:43:19,233 [pants] 617 00:43:23,170 --> 00:43:24,738 CLAIRE: 911. What's your emergency? 618 00:43:24,872 --> 00:43:26,640 It's my wife. 619 00:43:26,774 --> 00:43:28,476 It's my wife, she slit her wrist. 620 00:43:28,609 --> 00:43:31,546 CLAIRE: Remain calm. Okay, sir, you see the wound? 621 00:43:31,679 --> 00:43:32,947 Yes, yes. 622 00:43:33,080 --> 00:43:34,381 CLAIRE: Okay. Apply pressure to it. 623 00:43:34,516 --> 00:43:35,649 Is someone in the house that can help? 624 00:43:35,783 --> 00:43:37,586 Won't you send an ambulance? 625 00:43:37,718 --> 00:43:40,855 CLAIRE: It'll probably be faster if you take Claire yourself. 626 00:43:42,123 --> 00:43:43,525 What? 627 00:43:43,657 --> 00:43:46,093 CLAIRE: Take Claire to the emergency room. 628 00:43:46,227 --> 00:43:49,531 But how do you know her name? 629 00:43:50,331 --> 00:43:52,833 CLAIRE: If you keep wasting time, 630 00:43:52,967 --> 00:43:55,736 you might as well slit your own wrist. 631 00:43:56,770 --> 00:43:58,639 What the fuck you say to me? 632 00:43:58,772 --> 00:44:02,276 CLAIRE: So, she slashed her own wrist to get away from you. 633 00:44:02,409 --> 00:44:05,746 Then you turned the razor on yourself. 634 00:44:05,880 --> 00:44:07,681 Is that right? 635 00:44:08,849 --> 00:44:11,785 I can smell the rot. 636 00:44:11,919 --> 00:44:13,588 Why did you bring it into this house? 637 00:44:13,721 --> 00:44:16,657 All it was going to do is bring her more pain. 638 00:44:16,790 --> 00:44:19,160 So, she saved herself. 639 00:44:21,262 --> 00:44:24,265 Do you hear it? It's in here. 640 00:44:24,398 --> 00:44:26,000 How do you know this? 641 00:44:26,133 --> 00:44:27,801 -CLAIRE: It's setting in. -No. 642 00:44:27,935 --> 00:44:29,203 CLAIRE: Do you smell it? 643 00:44:29,336 --> 00:44:30,171 No. I'll never hurt her. 644 00:44:30,304 --> 00:44:31,772 CLAIRE: You did this! 645 00:44:31,906 --> 00:44:33,040 I would never hurt her. 646 00:44:33,174 --> 00:44:36,844 CLAIRE: Yes, you did. Look down. 647 00:44:38,112 --> 00:44:40,748 [sobs] 648 00:44:40,881 --> 00:44:42,617 CLAIRE: You did it. 649 00:44:42,750 --> 00:44:45,753 [grunts] 650 00:44:45,886 --> 00:44:47,721 [gasps] 651 00:44:56,565 --> 00:44:58,065 Did I scare you? 652 00:45:00,935 --> 00:45:02,369 I scared myself. 653 00:45:03,572 --> 00:45:04,738 Getting pretty good at that. 654 00:45:04,872 --> 00:45:07,542 Are you okay? You need something? 655 00:45:07,676 --> 00:45:09,243 You wanna know what I need? 656 00:45:10,311 --> 00:45:13,582 I need to sleep in my own bed for a change. 657 00:45:13,714 --> 00:45:16,750 My real bed. Is that okay? 658 00:45:18,185 --> 00:45:21,188 That is so okay. [chuckles] 659 00:45:21,322 --> 00:45:24,425 Well, scoot over then. That's my side, jerk. 660 00:45:25,594 --> 00:45:27,494 Keepin' it warm for you, brat. 661 00:45:27,629 --> 00:45:30,130 [Claire chuckling] 662 00:45:38,906 --> 00:45:40,374 [sighs] 663 00:45:51,485 --> 00:45:52,953 I missed this. 664 00:45:54,755 --> 00:45:56,223 I missed you. 665 00:45:57,391 --> 00:45:59,126 Me, too. 666 00:46:07,835 --> 00:46:09,770 I've been down there so long. 667 00:46:11,606 --> 00:46:14,241 I've forgotten what home feels like. 668 00:46:33,662 --> 00:46:37,331 [kissing] 669 00:46:37,464 --> 00:46:46,307 [♪♪♪] 670 00:46:54,848 --> 00:46:58,720 [pants] 671 00:46:58,852 --> 00:47:00,087 [indistinct speech] 672 00:47:00,921 --> 00:47:04,091 Yeah, I think so, 673 00:47:06,060 --> 00:47:07,529 but it felt good. 674 00:47:08,929 --> 00:47:10,431 I just... 675 00:47:11,633 --> 00:47:12,833 I need a minute. 676 00:47:12,966 --> 00:47:13,834 MATT: Take your time. 677 00:47:13,967 --> 00:47:18,072 [takes deep breaths] 678 00:47:54,542 --> 00:47:56,343 [sighs] 679 00:48:03,785 --> 00:48:05,553 [phone rings] 680 00:48:05,687 --> 00:48:08,623 Claire. What-- 681 00:48:10,224 --> 00:48:12,861 Claire, you're-- you're pocket dialing me. 682 00:48:12,993 --> 00:48:15,496 CLAIRE: What? No. 683 00:48:15,630 --> 00:48:18,232 You alright in there? You need something? 684 00:48:18,365 --> 00:48:20,735 CLAIRE: What are you talking about? 685 00:48:20,869 --> 00:48:22,403 Why don't you come back to bed? 686 00:48:23,337 --> 00:48:25,205 CLAIRE: I am in bed. 687 00:48:29,443 --> 00:48:30,944 Hello? 688 00:48:33,046 --> 00:48:34,181 Where are you right now? 689 00:48:34,314 --> 00:48:36,183 CLAIRE: Downstairs, in my room. 690 00:48:39,219 --> 00:48:41,121 Will you get me another juice? 691 00:48:42,089 --> 00:48:43,725 [Claire vomiting] 692 00:48:43,858 --> 00:48:52,232 [♪♪♪] 693 00:49:32,372 --> 00:49:34,308 -CLAIRE: Did I wake you? -How'd you do that? 694 00:49:34,441 --> 00:49:36,009 -What? -This isn't funny anymore, 695 00:49:36,143 --> 00:49:37,377 Claire! You shouldn't be walkin' around! 696 00:49:37,512 --> 00:49:40,380 Baby, go back to bed. Please. 697 00:49:43,450 --> 00:49:45,787 -What's that? -What? 698 00:49:45,920 --> 00:49:47,522 What the fuck is that? 699 00:49:48,590 --> 00:49:50,190 It's nothing. It's just... I don't know it's just 700 00:49:50,324 --> 00:49:51,492 -You cannot smoke, Claire! -something from earlier. 701 00:49:51,626 --> 00:49:53,293 -It's vapor. -You can't put shit 702 00:49:53,427 --> 00:49:55,028 -in your lungs, alright? -Matt, I'm not talking to you 703 00:49:55,162 --> 00:49:56,163 when you're like this! Go back to bed! 704 00:49:56,296 --> 00:49:58,766 You wanna die, goddammit? 705 00:49:58,900 --> 00:50:02,704 [upbeat music] 706 00:50:02,837 --> 00:50:06,508 Go back to bed. 707 00:50:06,641 --> 00:50:09,511 -I'm sorry. -Go back to bed! 708 00:50:29,664 --> 00:50:30,665 Hey. 709 00:50:30,798 --> 00:50:39,507 [♪♪♪] 710 00:51:25,152 --> 00:51:26,588 You're in. 711 00:51:41,869 --> 00:51:43,437 Hey! 712 00:51:44,839 --> 00:51:46,841 [Peggy giggling] 713 00:51:49,276 --> 00:51:58,418 [♪♪♪] 714 00:52:06,561 --> 00:52:09,429 -[screams] -[yells, grunts] 715 00:52:10,263 --> 00:52:19,540 [♪♪♪] 716 00:52:28,750 --> 00:52:30,183 [sighs] 717 00:52:39,292 --> 00:52:48,603 [♪♪♪] 718 00:52:49,737 --> 00:52:51,906 CLAIRE: Let me in. Let me in. 719 00:52:52,040 --> 00:52:54,008 Let me in! Let me in! 720 00:52:54,142 --> 00:52:56,209 Let me in! Let me in! 721 00:52:56,343 --> 00:52:58,046 Let me in! Let me in! 722 00:52:58,178 --> 00:53:00,615 -Let me in! -Fuck off! 723 00:53:02,050 --> 00:53:03,685 [Matt grunting] 724 00:53:06,054 --> 00:53:10,390 -[pants, coughs] -[water flowing] 725 00:53:29,143 --> 00:53:30,678 Hey, Claire? 726 00:53:32,780 --> 00:53:34,214 Claire? 727 00:53:36,784 --> 00:53:38,251 Claire? 728 00:53:39,386 --> 00:53:40,855 CLAIRE: What? 729 00:53:43,256 --> 00:53:44,692 Matt? 730 00:53:45,860 --> 00:53:47,327 Matthew? 731 00:53:48,361 --> 00:53:50,665 -Claire. -CLAIRE: I'm here. 732 00:53:50,798 --> 00:53:51,999 Claire! 733 00:53:53,366 --> 00:53:54,769 Claire, this isn't funny! 734 00:53:55,636 --> 00:53:57,370 CLAIRE: Down here. 735 00:54:09,217 --> 00:54:17,892 [♪♪♪] 736 00:54:48,923 --> 00:54:52,492 [chuckles] 737 00:54:55,863 --> 00:54:57,297 This is real. 738 00:54:57,430 --> 00:55:00,300 This is the furthest I've made in months. 739 00:55:00,433 --> 00:55:01,836 Claire, I'm so sorry. 740 00:55:01,969 --> 00:55:03,971 You look like shit. 741 00:55:04,105 --> 00:55:08,075 It's just I lashed out. 742 00:55:08,209 --> 00:55:09,610 Idiot. I'm so sorry. 743 00:55:09,744 --> 00:55:12,345 You did this for me? 744 00:55:13,881 --> 00:55:17,450 It's supposed to be a surprise. 745 00:55:20,555 --> 00:55:23,257 Claire, I'm really sorry. I'm so-- I'm so sorry. 746 00:55:23,423 --> 00:55:25,325 Hey. It's okay, alright? 747 00:55:25,458 --> 00:55:28,395 We've been cooped up here for a long time. 748 00:55:28,529 --> 00:55:30,598 A home studio. 749 00:55:30,731 --> 00:55:33,868 Wow! Color me shocked. 750 00:55:34,869 --> 00:55:36,838 Make your masterpieces down here. 751 00:55:38,506 --> 00:55:40,340 You got all the time in the world. 752 00:55:42,076 --> 00:55:44,477 Well, no. 753 00:55:50,483 --> 00:55:52,787 Still-- [chuckles] 754 00:55:54,421 --> 00:55:56,090 I appreciate it. 755 00:56:01,295 --> 00:56:02,930 [chuckles] 756 00:56:04,932 --> 00:56:06,300 What do you mean? 757 00:56:06,433 --> 00:56:09,237 I mean, I'm still dying, Matt. I'm just having a good day. 758 00:56:09,369 --> 00:56:11,438 You're [indistinct speech] I'm sure. 759 00:56:11,572 --> 00:56:13,507 God, it worked, Claire! You're... 760 00:56:13,641 --> 00:56:14,842 -What worked? -Okay. 761 00:56:14,976 --> 00:56:16,077 Listen, this is what I was trying to 762 00:56:16,210 --> 00:56:17,712 explain to you that night. 763 00:56:17,845 --> 00:56:20,715 I found something that was gonna solve all of our problems, 764 00:56:20,848 --> 00:56:22,884 but it came at a cost. 765 00:56:23,017 --> 00:56:25,086 I didn't know what it was then, but I do now. 766 00:56:25,219 --> 00:56:27,188 -What was it? -Well, it doesn't matter. 767 00:56:27,321 --> 00:56:28,723 It worked. It's real! 768 00:56:28,856 --> 00:56:31,192 -What's real? -It's real. You're healed! 769 00:56:31,325 --> 00:56:32,860 Stop talking like that. 770 00:56:32,994 --> 00:56:34,128 But it worked! 771 00:56:34,262 --> 00:56:35,630 Whatever it is, it didn't! 772 00:56:35,763 --> 00:56:37,732 Just-- uh, just look in the mirror. 773 00:56:37,865 --> 00:56:41,002 Don't insult me! I-- I know what I look like. 774 00:56:42,703 --> 00:56:44,005 You're beautiful. 775 00:56:45,139 --> 00:56:46,307 Claire, it worked. 776 00:56:46,439 --> 00:56:47,808 [sighs] 777 00:56:47,942 --> 00:56:49,442 It worked. 778 00:56:49,577 --> 00:56:51,112 So, I put some hair extensions in 779 00:56:51,245 --> 00:56:54,849 and paint my face, and now I'm beautiful. 780 00:57:06,694 --> 00:57:10,898 Everyone keeps asking me why I stopped chemo. 781 00:57:11,899 --> 00:57:13,601 Yeah. 782 00:57:13,734 --> 00:57:17,004 Why I drink my drinks, why I take my vitamins? 783 00:57:19,240 --> 00:57:20,541 This is why. 784 00:57:21,776 --> 00:57:24,812 [chuckles] This is the result of my decision. 785 00:57:25,880 --> 00:57:27,581 Of course I have some strength back. 786 00:57:27,715 --> 00:57:29,617 Of course I can walk. 787 00:57:29,750 --> 00:57:32,452 Hurts like a bitch, but I can do it. 788 00:57:34,487 --> 00:57:36,090 I'm not cured. 789 00:57:37,959 --> 00:57:40,761 I'm just not sick from the chemo anymore. 790 00:57:43,030 --> 00:57:44,699 I didn't wanna spend the rest of my life 791 00:57:44,832 --> 00:57:46,734 puking into buckets. 792 00:57:49,737 --> 00:57:52,173 I've been through hell for you. 793 00:57:52,306 --> 00:57:56,043 Don't talk to me about hell. 794 00:57:57,611 --> 00:57:58,913 Don't. 795 00:58:00,581 --> 00:58:02,049 [sighs] 796 00:58:06,354 --> 00:58:07,888 I want you back. 797 00:58:09,924 --> 00:58:12,093 I need you to live. 798 00:58:14,061 --> 00:58:15,963 [sniffles] 799 00:58:16,097 --> 00:58:17,497 Please. 800 00:58:17,631 --> 00:58:21,068 -[phone rings] -Come back to me. 801 00:58:21,202 --> 00:58:22,236 [sighs] It's Gwen. 802 00:58:22,370 --> 00:58:23,971 M-- Matt. 803 00:58:26,307 --> 00:58:28,042 Hello. 804 00:58:28,175 --> 00:58:29,744 GWEN: Well, I've been calling, and calling, and calling. 805 00:58:29,877 --> 00:58:31,379 Yeah, it's been a little hectic over here. 806 00:58:31,512 --> 00:58:32,947 GWEN: What did you do? 807 00:58:33,080 --> 00:58:34,382 What do you mean? 808 00:58:34,515 --> 00:58:36,650 GWEN: I go out of my way to get a blood sample, 809 00:58:36,784 --> 00:58:38,953 which I'm not even supposed to do. 810 00:58:39,086 --> 00:58:41,022 I make it all the way to the lab, right, 811 00:58:41,155 --> 00:58:43,224 only to find it missing from my bag. 812 00:58:43,357 --> 00:58:45,092 [door opens] 813 00:58:46,660 --> 00:58:48,029 GWEN: But more importantly, 814 00:58:48,162 --> 00:58:50,331 I was doing a favor for an old friend. 815 00:58:50,464 --> 00:58:52,199 And this is how you repay me? 816 00:58:53,334 --> 00:58:54,835 Done and over with. 817 00:58:55,736 --> 00:58:57,271 Good that nothing came of it. 818 00:58:58,039 --> 00:59:01,142 But you need to tell me the truth now. 819 00:59:02,176 --> 00:59:04,078 What the hell is goin' on with you? 820 00:59:07,148 --> 00:59:11,652 We've been pursuing an alternative method, 821 00:59:11,786 --> 00:59:13,487 and I think it's working. 822 00:59:13,621 --> 00:59:15,623 That's all I can say right now. 823 00:59:15,756 --> 00:59:19,560 Look, I want you to know that I am sorry. 824 00:59:20,694 --> 00:59:23,330 GWEN: I've been through this before. 825 00:59:23,464 --> 00:59:24,832 I've seen it all. 826 00:59:26,434 --> 00:59:28,235 You need to accept that she's... 827 00:59:31,305 --> 00:59:34,608 Things are not gonna go how you want them to go. 828 00:59:34,742 --> 00:59:36,110 CLAIRE: Matthew! 829 00:59:36,243 --> 00:59:37,144 I'll call you back. 830 00:59:38,813 --> 00:59:41,749 [gasps] 831 00:59:41,882 --> 00:59:44,018 What is happening to me? 832 00:59:46,287 --> 00:59:50,024 [pants] 833 00:59:51,759 --> 00:59:53,961 [door opens] 834 00:59:59,066 --> 01:00:01,035 [grunts] 835 01:00:02,736 --> 01:00:04,705 I'm sorry. [kisses] 836 01:00:04,839 --> 01:00:06,674 I'll be right back. I'm sorry. 837 01:00:06,807 --> 01:00:08,476 CLAIRE: Is it happening again? Is it happening again? 838 01:00:08,609 --> 01:00:11,378 Is it happening again? Is it happening again? 839 01:00:13,481 --> 01:00:17,552 [pants] 840 01:00:17,685 --> 01:00:27,328 [♪♪♪] 841 01:00:30,664 --> 01:00:33,067 AL: (On voicemail) This is Al. Leave me one. 842 01:00:33,934 --> 01:00:35,970 The bag will be on the curb. 843 01:00:36,103 --> 01:00:39,006 Come get it or I don't, I don't give a shit. 844 01:00:39,140 --> 01:00:41,375 [pants] 845 01:00:52,753 --> 01:00:53,454 INTERCEPT RECORDING: We're sorry-- 846 01:00:53,588 --> 01:00:55,356 Goddammit! 847 01:00:57,725 --> 01:00:59,960 [sighs] 848 01:01:00,094 --> 01:01:02,129 [typing] 849 01:01:19,847 --> 01:01:29,223 [♪♪♪] 850 01:01:40,602 --> 01:01:41,902 [grunts] 851 01:01:55,584 --> 01:02:04,225 [♪♪♪] 852 01:02:09,263 --> 01:02:11,198 BAR PATRON: [indistinct speech] 853 01:02:13,234 --> 01:02:14,669 -Shit! -Oh, Lilly, Lilly, Lilly! 854 01:02:14,802 --> 01:02:16,403 Come, come, come here. Come here. 855 01:02:16,538 --> 01:02:18,305 -Is everything alright? -Where's the guy? The guy? 856 01:02:18,439 --> 01:02:20,074 -The guy from the-- -Slow down! 857 01:02:20,207 --> 01:02:21,375 The guy-- the guy right over there. The guy right-- 858 01:02:21,509 --> 01:02:23,043 -Right over with the-- -What? What guy? 859 01:02:23,177 --> 01:02:25,279 Oh, fuck. He uh, called you "sweetheart". 860 01:02:25,412 --> 01:02:26,413 He's uh, the drinker right over there. 861 01:02:26,548 --> 01:02:27,748 Oh, I remember him. 862 01:02:27,881 --> 01:02:30,719 Yeah, you remember him. Uh, uh, Al. 863 01:02:30,851 --> 01:02:32,554 -Albert Evans? -I-- I'm sorry. 864 01:02:32,687 --> 01:02:34,221 -I don't even know who he is. -I have to-- 865 01:02:34,355 --> 01:02:35,690 do you know who he is? His contact, you know? 866 01:02:35,823 --> 01:02:37,191 -I don't know him, Matt. -Is there-- 867 01:02:37,324 --> 01:02:38,792 -did he have any friends? Is... -I-- I don't-- 868 01:02:38,926 --> 01:02:39,628 Is he real? Just a real fuckin' person! 869 01:02:39,760 --> 01:02:40,928 I don't know him! 870 01:02:41,061 --> 01:02:42,096 [indistinct chatter in background] 871 01:02:42,229 --> 01:02:43,531 -Oh, fuck. -I'm sorry. I-- 872 01:02:45,600 --> 01:02:47,034 I'm never gonna find him. 873 01:02:48,369 --> 01:02:52,172 Oh, fuck it, man. Oh, my God. 874 01:02:52,940 --> 01:02:54,241 I'm never gonna find him. 875 01:02:58,946 --> 01:03:02,116 Let um, just let me get you a drink, okay? 876 01:03:04,885 --> 01:03:07,021 The owner doesn't know him either. 877 01:03:07,154 --> 01:03:09,223 Uh, I texted some of the other bartenders, 878 01:03:09,356 --> 01:03:12,226 but I haven't heard back from anyone yet. 879 01:03:14,962 --> 01:03:16,230 Okay. 880 01:03:18,600 --> 01:03:19,933 Thank you. 881 01:03:20,834 --> 01:03:22,169 I'm really sorry. 882 01:03:25,640 --> 01:03:27,241 How's your mom doin', Lilly? 883 01:03:27,374 --> 01:03:28,809 It's downhill. 884 01:03:28,942 --> 01:03:31,613 It's like... 885 01:03:31,746 --> 01:03:33,380 ...living with a ghost. 886 01:03:33,515 --> 01:03:35,550 Then again, it's probably worst for her. 887 01:03:35,684 --> 01:03:37,851 She thinks I'm not her-- 888 01:03:37,985 --> 01:03:40,588 I told you this already, didn't I? 889 01:03:40,722 --> 01:03:42,056 Tell me anyway. 890 01:03:48,395 --> 01:03:49,798 It's tough. 891 01:03:49,930 --> 01:03:51,666 God, it is so tough. 892 01:03:51,800 --> 01:03:53,000 But I stick it out. 893 01:03:53,133 --> 01:03:54,669 She would do the same for me, right? 894 01:03:55,804 --> 01:04:00,107 It's such a strange feeling to be hidden in plain... 895 01:04:03,812 --> 01:04:05,012 MATT: What? 896 01:04:07,081 --> 01:04:08,449 What are you doing? 897 01:04:12,853 --> 01:04:13,822 You kidding? 898 01:04:13,954 --> 01:04:18,959 [♪♪♪] 899 01:04:19,093 --> 01:04:21,629 [Papers rustling] 900 01:04:40,815 --> 01:04:42,182 Hidden in plain sight. 901 01:04:44,017 --> 01:04:46,453 -That's it? -[chuckles] 902 01:04:47,555 --> 01:04:48,922 Oh, thank you. 903 01:05:01,636 --> 01:05:03,337 [doorbell rings] 904 01:05:19,920 --> 01:05:24,191 [upbeat music] 905 01:05:24,324 --> 01:05:25,993 You must be Matthew. 906 01:05:27,662 --> 01:05:29,062 You're early. 907 01:05:44,311 --> 01:05:46,213 You're tired, aren't you? 908 01:05:47,615 --> 01:05:49,950 My dad's finishing up in the basement. 909 01:05:50,083 --> 01:05:52,419 He'll be up as soon as he can. 910 01:05:52,554 --> 01:05:54,388 Would you care to wait in the dining room? 911 01:06:03,832 --> 01:06:05,299 Best seat in the house. 912 01:06:15,877 --> 01:06:19,279 It's uh, is Al okay? 913 01:06:22,917 --> 01:06:24,184 Why wouldn't he be? 914 01:06:27,321 --> 01:06:29,289 You live here with him? 915 01:06:29,423 --> 01:06:31,391 Ever since my diagnosis. 916 01:06:33,628 --> 01:06:37,097 Oh. Uh, I'm sorry. 917 01:06:37,231 --> 01:06:40,033 Oh, no, no, no, no, no. 918 01:06:40,167 --> 01:06:43,170 I'm much better now. You mustn't worry. 919 01:06:45,807 --> 01:06:47,775 You care for some tea? 920 01:06:47,909 --> 01:06:49,577 Lovely. Coming right up. 921 01:06:57,117 --> 01:06:58,686 [Peggy chuckling] 922 01:07:05,894 --> 01:07:14,468 [♪♪♪] 923 01:07:33,287 --> 01:07:36,524 [pours water] 924 01:07:39,459 --> 01:07:41,128 Milk and sugar? 925 01:07:42,095 --> 01:07:43,531 It's fine like that. 926 01:07:56,978 --> 01:07:58,345 How's the taste? 927 01:08:10,625 --> 01:08:12,259 [grunts] 928 01:08:14,562 --> 01:08:16,764 Be careful. [chuckles] 929 01:08:19,366 --> 01:08:20,602 [clears throat] 930 01:08:21,970 --> 01:08:26,841 Um, how's uh, how's city life? 931 01:08:26,975 --> 01:08:31,613 I don't know how to describe it other than it's alive. 932 01:08:33,480 --> 01:08:36,084 You make it downtown often? 933 01:08:36,216 --> 01:08:40,187 Blue Rock Estate, to be specific. 934 01:08:44,324 --> 01:08:45,760 I saw you at my house. 935 01:08:47,127 --> 01:08:49,363 I saw you in my dreams, too. 936 01:08:51,198 --> 01:08:54,769 You're special, and so is Claire. 937 01:08:54,902 --> 01:08:56,938 It chose us. 938 01:08:57,071 --> 01:08:59,907 The desperate, the damned, 939 01:09:00,041 --> 01:09:01,843 so it can cleanse us. 940 01:09:03,011 --> 01:09:04,277 What? 941 01:09:05,880 --> 01:09:07,615 You haven't seen it yet? 942 01:09:11,786 --> 01:09:14,522 You won't understand until you see. 943 01:09:16,323 --> 01:09:18,726 [gasps] Peggy, stop! 944 01:09:22,362 --> 01:09:23,363 Go. Please. 945 01:09:23,497 --> 01:09:25,399 -But I just-- -Please. 946 01:09:25,533 --> 01:09:28,335 -He has to understand. -He will. Go. 947 01:09:32,339 --> 01:09:33,273 How'd you find me? 948 01:09:33,407 --> 01:09:34,742 Phonebook. 949 01:09:35,777 --> 01:09:39,714 You could sit. You look tired. 950 01:09:39,847 --> 01:09:42,050 [grunts] 951 01:09:42,182 --> 01:09:43,518 What's goin' on? 952 01:09:45,053 --> 01:09:46,754 I got some fucking questions, Albert. 953 01:09:46,888 --> 01:09:48,623 AL: Well, go ahead and ask. 954 01:09:50,190 --> 01:09:51,626 What the hell is wrong with her? 955 01:09:51,759 --> 01:09:54,829 That's Peggy. She's been like that her whole life. 956 01:09:57,065 --> 01:10:01,401 You should be home, right? This is your last night. 957 01:10:01,536 --> 01:10:03,503 This was supposed to heal her, Al. 958 01:10:03,638 --> 01:10:04,404 It will. 959 01:10:04,539 --> 01:10:07,307 This is warping my brain, man. 960 01:10:07,441 --> 01:10:10,678 I'm-- I'm hearin' shit. 961 01:10:10,812 --> 01:10:13,313 -Did you talk to it? -I'm seein' shit. 962 01:10:13,447 --> 01:10:14,949 Did you look at it? 963 01:10:15,083 --> 01:10:16,383 Goddammit, Al! 964 01:10:16,517 --> 01:10:18,753 Oh, shit, man. You touched it, didn't you? 965 01:10:18,886 --> 01:10:19,987 [scoffs] 966 01:10:20,121 --> 01:10:21,989 Everything that you're going through right now, 967 01:10:22,123 --> 01:10:23,624 it's half the cost. 968 01:10:23,758 --> 01:10:27,227 This uh, fear and terror, it's primer. 969 01:10:27,360 --> 01:10:29,964 It's just part of the ritual. 970 01:10:30,098 --> 01:10:31,065 You lied to me. 971 01:10:31,199 --> 01:10:33,568 Uh, I did not lie to you. 972 01:10:33,701 --> 01:10:34,936 You fuckin' lied to me, motherfucker. 973 01:10:35,069 --> 01:10:36,303 Hey, don't talk like that-- 974 01:10:36,436 --> 01:10:37,705 -Fuck. So, fuckin' talk! -In my house. 975 01:10:37,839 --> 01:10:39,774 -Talk! No, talk! -This is not the first time 976 01:10:39,907 --> 01:10:42,110 that this conversation's been happening. 977 01:10:42,242 --> 01:10:44,344 This isn't the last time. 978 01:10:44,478 --> 01:10:45,713 It wasn't long ago, 979 01:10:45,847 --> 01:10:48,448 I was sitting where you're sitting. 980 01:10:50,417 --> 01:10:52,352 It's just a matter of time now. 981 01:10:54,421 --> 01:10:55,790 Before what? 982 01:10:59,794 --> 01:11:02,563 What's in it, Al? What's in the bag? 983 01:11:04,464 --> 01:11:05,800 The inevitable. 984 01:11:07,969 --> 01:11:11,906 The rules don't matter. You did the ritual. 985 01:11:16,144 --> 01:11:18,713 It's like a gado or a virus. 986 01:11:18,846 --> 01:11:21,783 The more people have it, the faster it spreads. 987 01:11:23,316 --> 01:11:26,453 It's-- it's-- it's not real. 988 01:11:26,587 --> 01:11:28,556 You wanted to get your wife back 989 01:11:29,356 --> 01:11:30,958 and now that's gonna happen. 990 01:11:31,092 --> 01:11:33,460 It's not real. 991 01:11:33,594 --> 01:11:34,862 Say something real. 992 01:11:34,996 --> 01:11:37,297 You're gonna have to make an adjustment. 993 01:11:37,430 --> 01:11:39,267 And that's just life. 994 01:11:39,399 --> 01:11:42,469 You're gonna have to learn how to roll with the screams, 995 01:11:42,603 --> 01:11:46,473 because believe me, they're gonna get louder. 996 01:11:46,607 --> 01:11:48,276 Your wife needs you 997 01:11:48,408 --> 01:11:51,344 and she's gonna need you a lot. 998 01:11:51,478 --> 01:11:54,447 So, you're gonna have to make some sacrifices. 999 01:11:57,218 --> 01:11:58,553 What do you mean? 1000 01:11:58,686 --> 01:12:00,387 I'm talking about love. 1001 01:12:01,823 --> 01:12:03,291 There's a lot of people out there 1002 01:12:03,423 --> 01:12:05,593 and they say that they'll do anything 1003 01:12:05,726 --> 01:12:07,028 to save the one that they love, 1004 01:12:07,161 --> 01:12:10,631 but they wouldn't really. 1005 01:12:13,801 --> 01:12:15,803 But you and me know better, right? 1006 01:12:23,110 --> 01:12:24,579 What's down there? 1007 01:12:26,314 --> 01:12:27,849 Go see for yourself. 1008 01:12:29,116 --> 01:12:30,551 Go ahead. 1009 01:12:39,492 --> 01:12:40,928 [takes a deep breath] 1010 01:12:41,062 --> 01:12:48,903 [♪♪♪] 1011 01:14:25,700 --> 01:14:28,903 [Peggy puking, coughing] 1012 01:14:39,547 --> 01:14:41,549 [screams] 1013 01:14:49,156 --> 01:14:53,961 When it's time, put her inside it. 1014 01:15:02,770 --> 01:15:03,704 Drive safe. 1015 01:15:03,838 --> 01:15:10,778 [♪♪♪] 1016 01:15:10,911 --> 01:15:12,713 Work sucked. Let's drink. 1017 01:15:12,847 --> 01:15:14,482 Sorry, I had to dip out on you last night. 1018 01:15:14,615 --> 01:15:15,883 Right now's a bad time. 1019 01:15:16,017 --> 01:15:18,252 -I just got here. -You need to go. 1020 01:15:18,386 --> 01:15:19,887 Hey, we need to talk. 1021 01:15:20,821 --> 01:15:22,323 -Talk on the way. -[opens door] 1022 01:15:22,456 --> 01:15:24,525 -Where? -The hospital. 1023 01:15:44,645 --> 01:15:46,113 [sighs] 1024 01:15:58,993 --> 01:16:00,261 No. 1025 01:16:03,030 --> 01:16:06,167 Oh. Mattie, I'm so sorry. 1026 01:16:08,302 --> 01:16:09,737 No, she's... 1027 01:16:11,972 --> 01:16:13,107 No. 1028 01:16:13,941 --> 01:16:16,545 She is. Mattie, I'm sorry. 1029 01:16:16,677 --> 01:16:18,446 I'm sorry she's dead. I'm sorry. 1030 01:16:18,579 --> 01:16:19,814 She's not. 1031 01:16:27,455 --> 01:16:31,225 [upbeat music] 1032 01:16:31,358 --> 01:16:32,827 But she's not gone. 1033 01:16:35,396 --> 01:16:37,198 -Come on. -What? 1034 01:16:39,733 --> 01:16:41,570 -Okay. [sighs] -What the hell is this? 1035 01:16:41,702 --> 01:16:44,472 -Help me move it. -Move it where? 1036 01:16:44,605 --> 01:16:45,973 Claire's room. 1037 01:16:47,641 --> 01:16:49,243 Man, I don't-- I don't like this. 1038 01:16:49,376 --> 01:16:50,611 I don't care! 1039 01:16:50,744 --> 01:16:52,146 This is like the toughest thing that-- 1040 01:16:52,279 --> 01:16:53,914 That anybody ever has to go through. 1041 01:16:54,048 --> 01:16:55,216 I'm so fuckin' sorry. 1042 01:16:55,349 --> 01:16:56,617 Look, man, I remember when Amy would-- 1043 01:16:56,750 --> 01:16:58,252 Fuck Amy! 1044 01:16:58,385 --> 01:17:00,988 -Hey. Hey, hey, hey! -Cousin, help me! 1045 01:17:01,122 --> 01:17:02,756 -Please, help! -Hey, get off of me. 1046 01:17:02,890 --> 01:17:04,358 Get off of me! Let go! 1047 01:17:04,492 --> 01:17:05,759 Alright! 1048 01:17:09,363 --> 01:17:10,631 Alright. 1049 01:17:10,764 --> 01:17:13,968 [both pant] 1050 01:17:37,491 --> 01:17:38,425 What's in this thing? 1051 01:17:38,560 --> 01:17:42,129 [pants] 1052 01:17:43,931 --> 01:17:45,199 I don't know. 1053 01:17:46,568 --> 01:17:51,305 [both grunt, pant] 1054 01:17:59,581 --> 01:18:00,915 -Okay. -Yeah. 1055 01:18:01,048 --> 01:18:03,751 -MATT: Okay. -Now what? 1056 01:18:04,852 --> 01:18:06,287 Get her feet, Harry. 1057 01:18:06,420 --> 01:18:07,821 What the fuck are you talkin'? What are you doin', man? 1058 01:18:07,955 --> 01:18:10,491 -What? -Get her fuckin' feet, Harry. 1059 01:18:10,625 --> 01:18:11,759 HAROLD: Why the fuck do you mean get her feet, Matt? 1060 01:18:11,892 --> 01:18:13,294 Get her fucking feet, Harry. 1061 01:18:14,195 --> 01:18:15,630 Are you fucking kidding me? 1062 01:18:15,763 --> 01:18:17,398 HAROLD: What the fuck do you mean get her feet? 1063 01:18:17,532 --> 01:18:19,066 -Are you fucking kidding me? -What the fuck you t-- 1064 01:18:19,200 --> 01:18:20,501 -No, fuck this, man! -You kidding me, Harry? 1065 01:18:20,635 --> 01:18:21,603 No, get the fuck-- Get the fuck off of me! 1066 01:18:21,735 --> 01:18:22,937 -[groans] -[pants] 1067 01:18:23,070 --> 01:18:24,639 What the fuck is wrong with you, man? 1068 01:18:24,772 --> 01:18:26,207 Get off! Fuck! 1069 01:18:26,340 --> 01:18:29,511 [both pant] 1070 01:18:29,644 --> 01:18:30,878 Sorry. 1071 01:18:31,845 --> 01:18:32,980 You gotta help me. 1072 01:18:33,113 --> 01:18:35,249 You are not fucking right right now! 1073 01:18:35,382 --> 01:18:36,817 I know! 1074 01:18:40,287 --> 01:18:41,455 I know. 1075 01:18:41,590 --> 01:18:43,324 [both pant] 1076 01:18:44,593 --> 01:18:46,695 You gotta help me, Harry. 1077 01:18:46,860 --> 01:18:48,597 What is happening in here? 1078 01:18:48,729 --> 01:18:50,497 I don't know. 1079 01:18:50,632 --> 01:18:51,666 [sighs] 1080 01:18:51,799 --> 01:18:53,400 I don't know. 1081 01:18:58,707 --> 01:19:00,241 I can't do this. 1082 01:19:03,477 --> 01:19:04,912 [sobs] [pants] 1083 01:19:05,045 --> 01:19:06,914 -This is it? -Yeah. 1084 01:19:08,182 --> 01:19:09,250 Yeah. 1085 01:19:10,719 --> 01:19:12,019 I can't. 1086 01:19:16,357 --> 01:19:17,491 [sighs] 1087 01:19:18,492 --> 01:19:19,594 Okay. 1088 01:19:19,728 --> 01:19:28,335 [♪♪♪] 1089 01:20:12,614 --> 01:20:16,317 [indistinct speech] 1090 01:20:26,628 --> 01:20:27,961 Hey, hey. 1091 01:20:28,095 --> 01:20:30,331 [indistinct speech] 1092 01:20:31,766 --> 01:20:32,667 HAROLD: Matt. 1093 01:20:32,801 --> 01:20:35,069 [steps falls] 1094 01:20:40,941 --> 01:20:45,279 [grunts] 1095 01:20:47,948 --> 01:20:50,652 Fuck! Fuck! 1096 01:20:50,785 --> 01:20:54,622 [Matt screaming] 1097 01:20:58,660 --> 01:21:03,931 [♪♪♪] 1098 01:21:04,064 --> 01:21:06,768 Oh, fuck! 1099 01:21:06,900 --> 01:21:09,336 [groans] 1100 01:21:09,470 --> 01:21:10,638 Fu-- 1101 01:21:24,451 --> 01:21:28,590 [gasps, pants] 1102 01:21:37,030 --> 01:21:39,667 [Harold screaming] 1103 01:21:45,072 --> 01:21:48,610 [chocking] 1104 01:21:55,048 --> 01:21:56,984 [body thuds] 1105 01:22:25,547 --> 01:22:26,980 [screams] 1106 01:22:27,114 --> 01:22:28,716 [grunts] 1107 01:22:36,825 --> 01:22:40,027 [grunts] 1108 01:22:43,865 --> 01:22:47,367 [banging door] 1109 01:23:17,832 --> 01:23:19,199 [screams] 1110 01:23:21,134 --> 01:23:22,704 Fuck. 1111 01:23:30,845 --> 01:23:32,412 [grunts] 1112 01:23:39,119 --> 01:23:43,023 [groans] 1113 01:24:05,747 --> 01:24:06,814 Jerk. 1114 01:24:09,149 --> 01:24:11,418 You saved me. 1115 01:24:11,553 --> 01:24:15,557 My bones don't eat. The pain is gone. 1116 01:24:18,693 --> 01:24:21,228 My hair is back. 1117 01:24:21,361 --> 01:24:24,398 Skin feels soft. 1118 01:24:25,733 --> 01:24:27,936 What's the matter? 1119 01:24:28,068 --> 01:24:30,237 Don't you think I'm beautiful? 1120 01:24:35,677 --> 01:24:38,378 [indistinct speech] remember? 1121 01:24:39,747 --> 01:24:43,651 I was going to die. But you saved me. 1122 01:24:44,852 --> 01:24:48,656 I can save you, if you want, Matt. 1123 01:24:49,724 --> 01:24:53,795 [screams, grunts] 1124 01:25:01,736 --> 01:25:03,370 [kisses] 1125 01:25:04,706 --> 01:25:08,543 [pukes] 1126 01:25:26,027 --> 01:25:27,494 Is everything okay? 1127 01:25:28,896 --> 01:25:30,464 Matt? 1128 01:25:33,200 --> 01:25:36,871 [chokes] 1129 01:25:41,509 --> 01:25:44,177 [knocking door] 1130 01:25:55,188 --> 01:25:57,625 Hi. Are you okay? 1131 01:25:58,392 --> 01:26:00,895 Of course. Why? 1132 01:26:01,763 --> 01:26:03,731 I mean, it sounded pretty bad on the phone. 1133 01:26:03,865 --> 01:26:04,866 What was that? 1134 01:26:06,601 --> 01:26:09,469 You called me. You called me for help. 1135 01:26:10,270 --> 01:26:11,572 Did I? 1136 01:26:12,439 --> 01:26:16,711 It's-- it's cold, Gwen, come on. Come inside. 1137 01:26:20,515 --> 01:26:22,249 I'll explain everything. 1138 01:26:27,088 --> 01:26:28,089 [door closes] 1139 01:26:28,221 --> 01:26:31,092 So, what was that on the phone? 1140 01:26:31,959 --> 01:26:35,063 Harold and I are building Claire a music studio downstairs. 1141 01:26:35,195 --> 01:26:37,565 So, we're movin' a bunch of stuff around. 1142 01:26:37,699 --> 01:26:39,901 Must have pocked dialed you. I'm sorry. 1143 01:26:41,969 --> 01:26:44,005 Um, where's Harold? 1144 01:26:44,138 --> 01:26:45,139 MATT: He left. 1145 01:26:45,272 --> 01:26:47,340 His truck's outside. 1146 01:26:47,474 --> 01:26:49,010 He's downstairs. 1147 01:26:49,143 --> 01:26:52,212 Well, um, if everything's okay, I guess I'll get going. 1148 01:26:52,345 --> 01:26:54,515 You came all this way, Gwen. 1149 01:26:56,084 --> 01:26:57,952 Stay for tea. 1150 01:27:17,404 --> 01:27:18,806 How's Claire? 1151 01:27:20,074 --> 01:27:21,509 A lot better. 1152 01:27:24,579 --> 01:27:25,980 She doesn't have long. 1153 01:27:27,548 --> 01:27:30,518 Could be months. Could be weeks. 1154 01:27:31,552 --> 01:27:33,487 Look, I know this hasn't been easy on you, 1155 01:27:33,621 --> 01:27:37,424 but it's better to start accepting your situation now 1156 01:27:38,291 --> 01:27:40,228 than have it forced on you later. 1157 01:27:41,095 --> 01:27:44,065 No one's fought harder for Claire than you have. 1158 01:27:44,198 --> 01:27:45,298 And I commend you for that. 1159 01:27:45,432 --> 01:27:48,636 But the time for hospice is now. 1160 01:27:48,770 --> 01:27:50,303 You don't have to shoulder this burden alone 1161 01:27:50,437 --> 01:27:51,906 anymore. 1162 01:27:59,180 --> 01:28:00,915 [gulps] 1163 01:28:14,562 --> 01:28:16,429 Someone comes to you, 1164 01:28:18,065 --> 01:28:19,734 and they say, 1165 01:28:20,968 --> 01:28:23,738 "If you make a wish, it will come true." 1166 01:28:27,374 --> 01:28:28,876 But there's a catch. 1167 01:28:33,214 --> 01:28:35,850 If they pluck an eyelash, 1168 01:28:37,118 --> 01:28:40,555 and blow it to the winds like a dandelion, 1169 01:28:42,322 --> 01:28:44,091 and the wish does come true, 1170 01:28:45,325 --> 01:28:47,427 just... 1171 01:28:48,596 --> 01:28:50,463 ...not the way you thought it would. 1172 01:28:54,602 --> 01:28:57,572 So, let me ask you, Gwen, 1173 01:28:58,940 --> 01:29:00,473 would you pluck 1174 01:29:03,978 --> 01:29:05,378 or not? 1175 01:29:07,347 --> 01:29:09,650 [upbeat music] 1176 01:29:09,784 --> 01:29:14,755 We all think we're special, but the truth is we're not. 1177 01:29:16,023 --> 01:29:17,592 I'm sorry. 1178 01:29:19,459 --> 01:29:21,329 There's no such thing as wishes. 1179 01:29:23,030 --> 01:29:24,665 [sighs] 1180 01:29:27,735 --> 01:29:29,904 I'd do it all over again. 1181 01:29:35,209 --> 01:29:38,145 When you're ready, we could talk about hospice. 1182 01:29:39,313 --> 01:29:40,615 I'll be here. 1183 01:29:43,551 --> 01:29:45,418 Are you still having nightmares? 1184 01:29:49,290 --> 01:29:50,725 Not anymore. 1185 01:29:55,229 --> 01:29:56,764 Good. 1186 01:30:00,902 --> 01:30:03,571 Hey, do you mind if I actually check on Claire? 1187 01:30:04,504 --> 01:30:06,406 I'd love to see her before I leave. 1188 01:30:09,076 --> 01:30:10,645 I think she'd like that. 1189 01:30:28,495 --> 01:30:30,197 GWEN: Claire? 1190 01:30:33,534 --> 01:30:35,202 Claire? 1191 01:30:47,248 --> 01:30:48,582 Matt? 1192 01:30:49,650 --> 01:30:51,018 Matt? 1193 01:30:52,253 --> 01:30:53,955 Come on, Matt, this isn't funny. 1194 01:30:59,093 --> 01:31:00,027 [grunts] 1195 01:31:00,161 --> 01:31:02,263 [screams] 1196 01:31:02,396 --> 01:31:03,664 [Claire grunting] 1197 01:31:03,798 --> 01:31:13,473 [♪♪♪] 1198 01:31:24,618 --> 01:31:28,756 LILLY: It's just this isn't where I pictured things going, you know? 1199 01:31:28,889 --> 01:31:32,927 The pain of having to put a complete halt on your life, 1200 01:31:33,060 --> 01:31:34,862 to take care of someone else, 1201 01:31:34,996 --> 01:31:36,797 knowing they're never gonna get better, 1202 01:31:36,931 --> 01:31:38,966 they're just gonna wither and die, 1203 01:31:39,100 --> 01:31:42,203 and the last of your memories of them are nothing 1204 01:31:42,336 --> 01:31:44,038 but nightmares. 1205 01:31:45,006 --> 01:31:47,008 No, I know the feeling, 1206 01:31:47,575 --> 01:31:50,378 but it doesn't have to end that way. 1207 01:31:50,511 --> 01:31:52,580 LILLY: Yeah, but look, 1208 01:31:52,713 --> 01:31:54,248 I'm thrilled to see you in here again, 1209 01:31:54,382 --> 01:31:57,618 but everyone isn't always as lucky as you are. 1210 01:31:57,752 --> 01:31:58,886 I'm not that lucky. 1211 01:31:59,020 --> 01:32:01,322 It's got nothin' to do with luck. 1212 01:32:01,455 --> 01:32:03,290 What-- what do you mean? 1213 01:32:04,091 --> 01:32:06,694 Would you do anything to save her? 1214 01:32:06,827 --> 01:32:07,762 Absolutely. 1215 01:32:07,895 --> 01:32:09,697 No matter the cost? 1216 01:32:11,499 --> 01:32:13,334 Anything. 1217 01:32:13,467 --> 01:32:15,036 What time do you get off? 1218 01:32:17,104 --> 01:32:17,671 An hour. 1219 01:32:17,805 --> 01:32:19,340 You live close by? 1220 01:32:19,473 --> 01:32:21,175 Not too far. Ten blocks or so. 1221 01:32:21,876 --> 01:32:23,844 You pick this up in one hour. 1222 01:32:25,379 --> 01:32:28,182 Okay. Thank you. 1223 01:32:31,485 --> 01:32:32,820 [chuckles] 1224 01:32:32,953 --> 01:32:35,222 Alright. Um, in the meantime, 1225 01:32:35,356 --> 01:32:37,158 how about a-- how about a drink? 1226 01:32:37,291 --> 01:32:38,726 What's your poison? 1227 01:32:38,859 --> 01:32:42,063 Two scotches. Neat. 1228 01:32:44,331 --> 01:32:45,733 Comin' right up. 1229 01:33:28,442 --> 01:33:29,743 Jerk. 1230 01:33:34,248 --> 01:33:35,649 Brat. 1231 01:33:37,318 --> 01:33:38,752 [cheers] 1232 01:33:39,987 --> 01:33:49,663 [♪♪♪] 1233 01:34:45,953 --> 01:34:55,429 [♪♪♪]